Sapi's thoughts

When you're only 5 years old, I said I love you.

You asked me: What is it?


When you're 15 years old, I said I love you.

You blushed... You look down and smile...


When you're 20 years old, I said I love you.

You put your head on my shoulder and hold my hand...

Afraid that I might dissapear...


When you're 25 years old, I said I love you.

You prepare breakfast and serve it in front of me

And kiss my forehead said: You better be quick, it's gonna be late..


When you're 30 years old, I said I love you.

you said: if you really love me, please come back early after work.

When you're 40 years old, I said I love you.

You are cleaning the dining table and said:

Ok dear, but it's time for you to help our child with his/her revision...


When you're 50 years old, I said I love you.

You are knitting and you laugh at me :-D


When you're 60 years old, I said I love you.

You smile at me :-)


When you're 70 years old, I said I love you.

We sit on the rocking chair with our glasses on.

I'm reading your love letter that you sent me 50 years ago...

With our hands crossing together...


When you're 80 years old, you said you love me!

I didn't say anything but cried...

That day must be the happiest day of my life!

Because you finally said you love me...

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You Are From the Moon

You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon. You're in touch with your emotions and intuition. You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory. Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone). A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many.

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You Know You're Indonesian When....

Your stomach growls when you don't eat rice for a day. You believe kecap ABC could turn bad cooking to gourmet food. You talk during a movie. You eat fried rice in the morning. You prefer Versace or Moschino jeans over Gap or Levi's. You don't think Jim Carrey is funny. You think Onky Alexander is a hunk. You think Rhoma Irama is kampungan. You carry a 16 oz. jar of sambal to where ever you travel. Driving a car that is cheaper than $15,000 embarrasses you. You think dangdut is stupid, but listen to it anyways, because you are homesick. You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy tahu and tempe. You are "Dreaming of a WARM Christmas". You are very good at avoiding potholes and other road hazards. Your local McDonald's serves rice and sambal. You think Supermi is a staple food. You have ever tried passing a Rp 50 coin as a quarter in a US vending machine/pay phone. You have ever successfully bribed a police officer. You have ever successfully bribed a customs officer. You do your shopping in Singapore. Your drivers license claims you are 5 years older then you really are. You have ever legally bought pirated software. You have ever been forced to memorize UUD'45. You have bought something from a barefooted street peddler. You know exactly how many islands Indonesia has. You have ever eaten something sold off a cart on wheels. You realized that money is everything before you were six. The first thing that comes to mind when hearing the word "Jakarta" is "macet". Someone you know has ever ridden on top of a train. Your daily commute includes thinking up new ways to ride the city bus for free. You don't mind people being late. You think standing in line is a waste of time. You have tried every Monday of your youth trying to avoid upacara bendera. You have used a mosquito repellant that looks like a coil and is lit on one end. You use the terms "Ni yee", "-lah" and "Ih, jijay" on daily basis You know what Pancasila is, what it means and know it by heart. You complain that movies in America don't have sub-titles. Your daily conversation may include enactments of TV commercials. You have ever consulted a dukun. Your whole class has ever cheated on a test, and gotten away with it. You have ever spent the night before an exam looking for someone who sells the questions. You like the smell of terasi. You think the Thomas Cup is equal to the Super Bowl. You can name a manufacturer of shuttlecocks/badminton birdies. You have a 16' satellite dish hidden in your back yard. You have ever ridden in a motor vehicle with three wheels. You miss your maid during laundry day. Your clothing has brand names printed on it that is visible from 50' away. You attend weddings only until you are done eating. You have attended weddings that you are not invited to. You go to McDonald's to get your weekly supply of ketchup, salt, pepper and napkins. You know more than one music group that stole the tune of Cranberries' "Zombie". You have a can of Baygon on your kitchen table. You make major decisions based on gengsi. You take advantage of Wal-Mart's 30 days money-back-guarantee to "borrow" home appliances. Someone in your family has extra pockets in his outfit to hide cookies from the all-you-can-eat bar. You have paid more then $1000 to get your name on your license plate. When watching TV you regularly find that all the channels broadcast the same thing. You know more than 10 acronyms/abbreviations. You set the ring tone of your cell phone as loud as possible. You spend your weekends at an expensive five star hotel near your house. You have one of those gigantic 5000 watts stereo system even though you can't turn it as loud as you can since you live in a crowded neighborhood. Your Toyota Kijang is packed with bull bar, fog lights, roof rail, car alarm, expensive car audio, gold plated emblems, tail light "protector", racing steering wheels, sports muffler, lowered suspension, 17 inch wheels with expensive tires, etc. Yet you find them not gaul enough. You are able to squeeze 15 passengers in your Toyota Kijang. If you're rich, you buy a huge 50.000 dollars imported SUV and demands it to run minimal 12 kilometers with a liter of gas. You refuse to buy unleaded gas for your imported car even though it costs less than 20 cents a liter. You have your drivers license at the age of 14. You got it without any driving tests. You are unfamiliar with electric stove. You are even more unfamiliar with microwave ovens. If you're a student, your main purpose in life is to succeed in UMPTN and get into a Universitas Negeri. If you've graduated from college, your main purpose in life is to find an easy job with big salary at a foreign company even if you have to stay unemployed for five years to find one. If you finally got a job, your main purpose in life is now to get a wife/husband that's rich, from a "good" family, and the most importantly good looking in order to memperbaiki keturunan. You're proud to be Indonesian - and you pass these jokes on to all your Indonesian friends!

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For my soulmate. You know who you are (well...hopefully, soalnya lo suka agak2 telat sih, hehehehe). I am really blessed to have you as a friend. Hope you'll read this and think of how much I appreciate your existence in this world.
Anyway, thanks for tonight, it's been too long ya ndut. I promise next time whenever I have free time, I'll let you know, especially on weekends (free minutes for my phone, dude ;p) hehehe. Sayang kita jauh nih sekarang, jadi ga bisa curhat sesuka gue (vice versa lah ya)
By the way, awas kalo lo ngetawain gue! Kalo iya, I'll find out somehow, and you'll feel my wrath!!
Oh, and sorry about the joke, whatever you say, I still feel bad. Next time I tell you I'm getting married, I promise it'll be for real (amiiin, hehehe). It was a good one though..!! ;p hehehehehe
Oke deh ndut, just want to let you kow that you're a good friend and I'm so lucky being one of yours.
(I know you're smiling right no..w! hehehehe)

Posted by Amanda Supriadi at 11:34:00 PM | Permalink | Comments

Yes, my dear friends....Mr. Sweetness strikes again *sigh (with a twinkle in my eyes...)
This morning, dia sapa gue, trus nanya "how are you?". Gue bilang not good, karena emang gue lagi kena sore throat (barengan ama Sigit, harinya sama pula, ya nggak de?). Trus dia bilang: "Then what are you doing here, working? go home..." Dan yang bikin terharu itu mukanya tu loh..yg bener2 genuine concern.. *sigh lagi...
Gue bilang ga bisa, soalnya emang hari ini gue ada kelas abis kerja. Trus dia bilang: "Not fun, huh..?"
Dan seterusnya dan seterusnya.....udah gitu terakhir gue bilang don't come near me, I don't want to make you sick too. Udah gitu dia bilang: "Ah, that's okay," and not move away...

Terharuuu...!

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Happy Eid for all of you who celebrate it. Hope you have a good and blessed fasting month. Semoga semua amal2 kita diterima Allah S.W.T.
And for all of you guys, I wish for your forgiveness, for all of the things that I've done, on purpose or not, and realizing it or not, that I've made mistakes or do you wrong.
So, this comes out truly from my heart, I just want to say, guys, I'm really sorry.
I am still in my quest of being a better person, and I think this quest will never ends so long as I live and breathe (it's kinda similar with the quest of world peace, you know. It'll never ends, hehehe).
Anyway, once again, I'm really sorry and I am begging for your big hearts to be able to forgive me, k (yey maksa, hehehe). I love you all!


XOXO,
Manda

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Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you
Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you
on the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue
that is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

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This morning... I got a whole new perspective about this guy. Well, I've always thought that he's really nice, but I didn't know that he could be such a sweetheart..!
Well, here's the story.
Usually every Tuesday and Thursday mornings I am prepping those computer rooms, including filling up the paper tray for the printers and all. Usually he and I kid around about how he keeps stocking up the papers while I take them right away for the classrooms. So, I am his li'l paper-snatcher lady..hehehe.
Anywhoo...this morning wasn't any different, I had to take a cart from the storage to take the papers with me (I could carry up to 3 rims of paper comfortably, juggling those with my clipboard full of keys, but more than that, I need the cart). As usual, I parked the cart in front of the door. However this time, he actually approached me, smiled from ear to ear, and asked me (really nicely, I might add) how many rims I need. I asked for four, and then walked into my office to grab some markers. When I came out, 5 rims of papers were already stacked neatly on the cart, with candies on top of them! Unfortunately, I could not just say thank you gracefully, instead, I couldn't stop myself from saying: "Ooh...candy!", and hopped. twice. hehehe.
I'm eating those candies right now. Want some?

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Hi, Amy, it's mom..
Well, by the time you see this, I won't be here anymore. And I know how much that sucks, for both of us.
So seeing as how I won't be around to thoroughly annoy you, I thought I would give you a little list of things that I wish for you.
Well, there's the obvious. An education.
Family. Friends. And a life that is full of the unexpected.
Be sure to make mistakes. Make a lot of them. Because there's no better way to learn and to grow, all right..?
And, um, I want you to spend a lot of time at the ocean, because the ocean forces you to dream.
And I insist, that you, my girl, be a dreamer.
God.
I never really believe in God. In fact, I've spent a lot of time and energy trying to disprove that God exists. But I hope that you are able to believe in God, because the thing that I've come to realize, sweetheart....is that it just doesn't matter if God exists or not.The important thing is for you to believe in something.
Because I promise you, that that believe will keep you warm at night, and I want you to feel safe always.
And then there's love.
I want you to love to the tips of your fingers, and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it.
But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient, and it'll come to you, I promise. And when you least expect it, like you, like spending the best year of my life with the sweetest and the smartest and the most beautiful baby girl in the world.
You don't be afraid, sweetheart.
And remember, to love is to live.

-a message from a dying young mother to her baby daughter-

ps. ada yg tau nggak ini drmn hayo? :p

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Duuu...h! Ini lagu ga bisa keluar dr kepala gue dari tadi pagi! padahal lagunya enak loh...sayangnya jadi soundtracknya Kingdom Hospital, so it's kinda sucks all the good things about it and just leave the song with eerieness...
Mungkin ini hasil dr nonton Kingdom Hospital di rumah Ading, ni film panjang banget ga beres2, dr jam 1 ampe imsak pun belom beres2 filmnya. Gue nontonnya sambil tidur abis ngantuk banget, paling bangun sekali2 buat update ceritanya udah nyampe mana. Filmnya sih sebenernya nggak seem2 amat, but the thing is, setiap gue bangun tuh kayanya slalu, always, slaluu pas sebagian filmnya udah abis, trus move on to the opening part...bye bye baby...don't be long...i'm worried about you..whe you're gone..
ada image Antibus, the disease-sucking anteater, ada cewek lying down with an unnatural position, and then her face turned into a white mask covered with dirt, ada a pair of hands holding some kind of peas. it was ok when I watched it, but when it all plays back in my head (like now...*sigh), it's just wrong in so many levels (for me, at least).

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